Defeated

[Stealth Eclipse]

Death is only another weakness of the human anatomy/
Death fears those who dont fear it, and yourn for there own fatality/

I picture life as "hell on earth" full of struggles and pain/
The cards I've been dealt, like the hands of Jesus remain the same/

At times I feel heaven is a struggle to paradise/
I guess the future never metamorphasises once we leave this life/

My mind really wouldn't mind if we both decomposed tonight/
Even before birth I was weakend to this state of mind/
I would turn to suicide if my belief in damination didn't keep me alive/

Life is a test that I always seem to fail/
I wasn't told to study, its like I was expected to know brail/

My soul seems to pray for an eternitys time/
Visualizing God ignoring me and I still ask why?/

Stress and tension, living is a competition/
Who's only mission is to burn your soul beyond recognition/

I can only hope for the day when I stop breathing/
Maybe if I pray for it my soul will start leaving/

Kept in the closet most of my life/
No need to clean it out cause there's nothing inside/

I've been having visions of a wife and creation/
I dont want neither, my inferior sperm, fears of a child that yourns for a father with positive terms, on top of political worms that
burrow into your thought so you can no longer squirm for yourself/

I asked God to help me figure out a destiny/
And I get blessed with suicidal tendencies,
and shattered dreams that will never be,
because Im too blind to see truth beyond reality/

A Gemini and a Yin and Yang always 2 sides to a story/
Part gentalman and the other with suicidal visions,
to put me in a fatal category/

Constant talks of peace on earth, no one cares/
How can peace be when everyday we are subjected to psycological warefare/

I look back at all of the time I've wasted/
Surprised I came this far when my only motivation is Satan!/

I prayed until my cries couldn't be heard anymore/
I would only enter the army so I could raise my chances of dying a little more/

I should just sign up for the army and bring death to me/
Once I get to the battle ground I'll go unarmed ,
cause I refuse to bring another human harm/

For those who want to live, more power to you/
cause I AM DEFEATED and empty inside too/

Im the equivalent of walking corpse and a morbid master/
My faith claims not to question God, but my exsistence remains un-answered/
Im a christian and my faith is similar to dying of cancer/

The truth is though, this might sound inconsiderate/
I care nothing for there feelings, and I hope they dont mourn for this idiot/

For those looking for death there's no need for a trip/
If you think for a second you'll realize its at your fingertips/

As sun rises so does the gun to my brain/
The luminous rays turn to darkness and I realize,
it's gonna be a marvelous day!!............................................. .................
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