I have something to say. [Archive]

Phoenix

01-31-2008, 05:07 AM

I've been posting here for a long time. It's been over three years now and I've come to know many of you very well. I've hidden behind a veil for these years, letting only tidbits of my true self through.

But I don't know what to do any more. My life has become so muddled, so... confusing. I thought I knew what I wanted out of this life. I would wait. I would marry a good woman and then we would be... together... for the first time.

But I don't know what happened. Somehow... things just got out of control. I just... I lost myself for a moment and I gave something away that I didn't want to. I... I had sex with her.

I've kept it bottled inside me since Saturday. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm immoral, I'm a sinner. I had intercourse out of wedlock. I COMMITED ADULTERY!

I hid it from my parents. And now, on my birthday of all days, I had to lie to my parents face. I had to hide my secret shame. They didn't ask me, but it felt as though their eyes bore through me. As if they could see it written across my face.

And the worst part is... I didn't even like it.

I... I think I might be gay.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 05:09 AM

So..

Did you get her name? Or at least a phone number?

Viper

01-31-2008, 05:11 AM

I was looking for a 9,000 post prank line or something but he's a few posts too early.

the poe collector

01-31-2008, 05:12 AM

You people are crazy.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 05:12 AM

That isn't the issue here.

JasonXe

01-31-2008, 05:13 AM

awesome

Viper

01-31-2008, 05:13 AM

Can't say I'm not surprised.

Good luck to you, Pho.

Hisham

01-31-2008, 05:13 AM

I was looking for a 9,000 post prank line or something but he's a few posts to early.

koten

01-31-2008, 05:14 AM

Um... Wow... I thought there was something weird about how defensive he was... but I never thought it was this.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 05:15 AM

Yeah. It's real intense..

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 05:15 AM

Trust me... I know exactly what was probably going through your head. It is hard having the conflicting issues and not really knowing what to do... not knowing who to talk to, not knowing who to believe or follow....

Phoenix... really, I suggest that you read my blog. Although it is geared more towards fitting in with Mormonism, I think you can apply a lot of the same thoughts and principles.

We need to talk more.

koten

01-31-2008, 05:25 AM

I guess there are a lot of people who know what you're going through. Don't be scared to talk Phoenix. We're open here and I know that we've never been on the best of terms, but I'm willing to listen if you need it.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 05:27 AM

You guys are worthless.

I can't explain how pissed off I was... in the back of my head I was wondering if this was a joke or not.

I find the issue that Phoenix "apparently" got himself into to be quite serious. If you are going to do something like this, do it in the madhouse.

Whoever made this up should be drug out into the street and shot.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 05:28 AM

so in other words, Phoenix just notified me to tell me this is fake.

dork

01-31-2008, 05:30 AM

lol, phoenix is queer.

http://www.bikini.com/images/grams/girls/tim_hang_full.jpg

Viper

01-31-2008, 05:30 AM

Fake? How the hell is it fake? It's his account and even the IP address matches his other posts. I can't do that even in the Admin CP.

Is he just having second thoughts about having posted this or was he just joking?

D3adcell

01-31-2008, 05:31 AM

So why is this posted then? WTF is going on?

Phoenix if you did do that, you probably didn't enjoy it because of all the guilt you have and thinking its wrong etc. Doesn't mean you are gay, you can't just start playing baseball and always hit homeruns.

Lucent Beam

01-31-2008, 05:32 AM

Yeah, so for a joke, not funny.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 05:32 AM

Phoenix sent me this:
I'm sorry, IEFP, but I didn't make that thread, nor is any of it true. Heck, my girlfriend and I weren't even together last Saturday. I'm not gay. Some guy just did God only knows what and made a thread in my name. Bryan said it was a trick moderators can do.

Sorry for the confusion.

the poe collector

01-31-2008, 05:33 AM

It's a social experiment.

Lucent Beam

01-31-2008, 05:34 AM

It's a social experiment.

Now, that. That's funny.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 05:36 AM

im trying to figure out why phoenix hasn't responded in the thread....

ugh, this makes me sick. I have to get to bed now. I have a freakin exam tomorrow... I took a break from studying to find this thread. I felt sorry for Phoenix... I took time to assure him everything will be fine... and it ends up being a prank.

someone needs to be banned.

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 05:51 AM

Ban koten! It's all his fault!

Also, I agree not funny, except what poe said.

Travis

01-31-2008, 05:52 AM

Hahahahaha.

Best. Thread. Ever.

Hisham

01-31-2008, 05:55 AM

Currently Active Users Viewing This Thread: 10 (7 members and 3 guests)
Hisham, Bryan, Lucent Beam, MCKingKongMushi, nayrk, Nymphomaniac, Vladamir

Popular thread. I am seeing atleast 5 pages for it. Whether it is true or not, we'll see.

Jonny Royal

01-31-2008, 05:56 AM

LOL Great thread

Bryan

01-31-2008, 05:57 AM

I think Phoenix just got cold feet.

Travis

01-31-2008, 05:57 AM

Whoever made this up should be drug out into the street and shot.

That seems perfectly reasonable.

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 05:59 AM

Oh fucking shame on you Viper. Fucking shame on you.

I love you.

Skull Kid

01-31-2008, 06:05 AM

I find this immature, yet for some reason amusing.

Teh Roxor!

01-31-2008, 06:12 AM

People like to get angry over the silliest things.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 06:56 AM

I'm just happy that I have a new signature. I don't know about any of this other bullshit.

iSDK

01-31-2008, 06:58 AM

If this is true:

Phoenix... If you ever want to talk I'm sure you have all the sounding board in the world here... or PM's work fine.

either way I have a thread to attend to in the madhouse, you are more than welcome to join in the frivoity since someone changed the title

Omega Blue

01-31-2008, 07:12 AM

Gummy

01-31-2008, 07:13 AM

Haha, this is pretty low.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 07:14 AM

I don't know what nayrk is talking about.

Gummy

01-31-2008, 07:20 AM

*Ignore list*

Bryan

01-31-2008, 07:22 AM

You can't ignore mods or admins.

the poe collector

01-31-2008, 07:23 AM

I really wish you were able to.

Gummy

01-31-2008, 07:24 AM

Well, unless you're nayrk.
His madhouse posts gives me major a headache.

Agreed with poe though.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 07:24 AM

Look here you son of a bitch..

LaLiLuLeLo

01-31-2008, 07:37 AM

Might not be gay, the sex might have just not been good, and he could be overwhelmed with guilt. But, if he is gay, it's not like I really give a shit. Just throwing in 2 cents.

Unspoken

01-31-2008, 07:37 AM

... Where?

Bryan

01-31-2008, 07:46 AM

Right on, Lali.

Phoenix

01-31-2008, 07:49 AM

So, who is responsible for this?

LaLiLuLeLo

01-31-2008, 07:52 AM

Right on, Lali.

Man I'm late. Ha!

Bryan

01-31-2008, 08:00 AM

Oh shit, I'm leaving this thread now. They're converging.

Gummy

01-31-2008, 08:56 AM

Phoenix is back.

hide everyone!
http://www.mnstate.edu/schwartz/hiding.jpg

Hylian-Advocate

01-31-2008, 09:13 AM

^hahahaha......now that was funny....

this thread..... wasn't funny but is slowly turning into funnyness.

Gaul

01-31-2008, 11:50 AM

I think hes fucking with us.

Khaos

01-31-2008, 11:50 AM

I am amused.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 01:32 PM

I am still pissed.

Mirai

01-31-2008, 01:59 PM

What the fuck is going on?

seahorse

01-31-2008, 02:02 PM

haha...

White Avalanche

01-31-2008, 02:57 PM

first post yay!

Colin™

01-31-2008, 05:22 PM

So, who is responsible for this?

youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu are!

koten

01-31-2008, 05:35 PM

Now I'm just confused.

Bryan

01-31-2008, 05:42 PM

Nobody wants to own up to it?

koten

01-31-2008, 05:53 PM

I think Phoenix is pulling one hell of a prank.

Blaksmoke

01-31-2008, 06:00 PM

Okay okay. You all know me. Know how I earn a living. I'll catch this bird for you, but it ain't gonna be easy. Bad fish. Not like going down to the pond and chasing bluegills and tommycocks. This shark, swallow you whole. No shakin', no tenderizin', down you go. And we gotta do it quick, that'll bring back your tourists, put all your businesses on a payin' basis. But it's not gonna be pleasant. I value my neck a lot more than three thousand bucks, chief. I'll find him for three, but I'll catch him, and kill him, for ten. But you've gotta make up your minds. If you want to stay alive, then ante up. If you want to play it cheap, be on welfare the whole winter. I don't want no volunteers, I don't want no mates, there's too many captains on this island. Ten thousand dollars for me by myself. For that you get the head, the tail, the whole damn thing.

Fillibuster

01-31-2008, 06:41 PM

Wait, so do we know yet if this is real or if Phoenix is pulling a birthday gag or something...

Gummy

01-31-2008, 07:06 PM

He's gagging on a cock for sure, but either way if this is fake or not, he's a homofursexual and 18.

FISCHSTYX

01-31-2008, 07:14 PM

Might not be gay, the sex might have just not been good, and he could be overwhelmed with guilt. But, if he is gay, it's not like I really give a shit. Just throwing in 2 cents.

+1

Honestly, what is with all the gayness on these forums? 1337GheyCowboys and all that... WTF? Just curious...

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 07:37 PM

What is with your presence on the forums? Same could be asked about you, so if I were you I would either 1) rephrase above statement or 2) shut the fuck up.

This prank is ridiculous. Not only was it not fair to Phoenix on his birthday of all days. But I know two people who should be incredibly ashamed of theirselves. Now I've seen some low shit in my life. But damn you guys. IEFP, get over it. This wasn't about you anyway. There is more then one gay person on these boards find a friend and shut up. If anyone should be pissed it should be Phoenix.

So wrong...

Just remember guys(yeah you two). What goes around comes around and Karma is a bitch.

Travis

01-31-2008, 07:58 PM

So does anyone know who did it yet?

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 08:03 PM

I do. I'm not giving names. Those two can fess up. Bastards.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 08:03 PM

Gummy

01-31-2008, 08:04 PM

I'll be damn if an apology thread comes up because of this.

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 08:09 PM

Blazekat, the subject being discussed is very serious to me. That's why I am pissed and still remained upset over the issue. I can't just "get over it." It's not that easy. Phoenix's thread is not a joke at all to me as I lived several years in conflict over such an issue. I don't want people thinking they can make a good joke out of "coming out"... especially with religion in the mix. They can do that in the madhouse. That is what it is for.

Whoever made this stupid thread needs to be held responsible.

No no see. You are just being an attention whore. Anything you can possible do to say "Hey hey Im gay no one knows Im mormon oh shit". Sweetie I adore you, I think you are a good guy, but fucking get over it. This whole thread had NOTHING to do with YOU. It never said IEFP in it anywhere. This is one of those times where you just need to you know, shove your nose in another hole and again get over it. YOU have NO reason to be pissed, IT ISN'T ABOUT YOU.

*edit*
I'm only upset for Phoenix, because it was just wrong.

Gummy

01-31-2008, 08:18 PM

Cat fight!

j/k.

This thread is too much drama for me.
someone needs to do something about this!
Well, if anyone cares.

*clicks out of this threaD*

BlazeKat

01-31-2008, 08:19 PM

I agree. Fucking take it down Viper or you and I shall tango.

IEatFriedPikmin

01-31-2008, 08:19 PM

Perhaps you should read what I said again. I can relate to the issue at hand, that is apparently a joke, and that is why I am upset. Whenever I make posts concerning the topics, I post them for a reason. If people see that as me being an "attention-whore," then I am sorry. I really did not mean to end up being viewed that way on these boards. Perhaps coming out to you guys was a huge mistake in the first place. And that's all my fault.

If Phoenix didn't know this was coming, I feel bad for him too.

I guess I might as well say this now. This isn't a spur of the moment choice... so don't worry, I am not being an attention whore about this as much as you would want to believe it. I have been thinking about it over the past few weeks.

I'm leaving this place. There is no benefit whatsoever for me being here. Some of the things that go on in this place just make me sick, and I just don't need to be here. I will be asking Viper for a request to have a permaban set on my account.